O Lord, You have searched me and You know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
You perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
You are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
You know it completely, O Lord.

You hem me in--behind and before;
You have laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Where can I flee from Your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, You are there;
if I make my bed in the depths,
You are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the dar side of the sea,
even there Your hand will guide me,
Your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say surelythe darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,
even the darkness will not be dark to You;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to You.

For You created my inmost being;
You knit me together in my mother's womb.
I praise You because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from You
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
Your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in Your book
before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are Your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with You.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

~ Psalm 139

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Faith & Provision in Ministry

"God's plan is, there shall be none of self and all of Christ.
The very people who are doing the most for God in saving souls, in mission work, in the care of orphans, are those who are working on short supplies of strength, of money, of talents, of advantages, and are kept in a position of living by faith and taking from God, day by day, both physical and spiritual supplies. This is the way God succeeds and gains conquests over His own people, and over the unbelief of those who look on His providence."

~ George Muller (1805-1898)

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Cataclysmic!

If I had to describe what happened this week, it would be that God forever changed lives, touched hearts, and transformed Trinityouth into 'another animal' as Pr Jude says, or something else; an actual, living organism that knows His love and lives for His glory.

We went for YFN (Youth For the Nations) Camp again, this year with 30 of our young people. By the end of the week, I could sense such an anointing on their lives. When young people are saturated in the presence of God, they show so much promise in them! There's so much in them that shines because their hearts are illuminated by Holy Spirit and their souls set ablaze. Only into the second day of camp, their hands are already shot into the sky and voices blasting away in worship!

I remember telling the boys that night, the second night, when we were in the church kitchen, that I really felt God told me He was gonna set each on of them on fire, the girls as well. Their lives will never be the same again. Their passion and zeal for God will be fiery, and they will infect their families and friends with the presence and the power of God.

By the end of camp, just within our group, we had about ten youth baptized in Holy Spirit and their tongues rolling in a new prayer language and others set free from their sin and shame, set free to dance and use their bodies as worship unto God, eyes opened to see how important their lives are and how much is at stake as the devil tries everything to steal, kill, and destroy their generation. Some of them experienced God for the first time, realising how much they are loved by Him. Some of them were delivered from demonic oppression and possession and overcame haunting spirits of the past by the power of blood of the Lamb and the testimony of His saints.

Dear God, raise up a generation that will seek You face! Let Your holy flame burn passionately in them for You...let this be the beginnings of a fresh work You are doing in our young people, our church, and our generation. Pour out Your Spirit, God, on Your sons and daughters! Set us aflame to reflect Your glory and do Your will on this earth!! Amen!

Give-up galore...

While I was talking to Pr Mike this afternoon, God reminded me once again of His divine providence in my life. I have just been offered an administrative position in church, something that Lynn and I have been praying for for months. I realised that before I was even offered anything, I had to come to a point where I totally surrendered to God, and give up my desire to work in church.

Then, it all came back to me like a reel of film unrolling at full speed: Everything I have ever asked of God, every desire that I have ever had, I had to come to a place where I have totally given it up before He would give it back to me. The more significant ones were:

• to attend Christ For the Nations Institute. My visa took more than 6 months before it was approved, by which time I had already given up hope of ever coming to the United States. Then it came.
• to complete my education. When I answered God's call to serve Him in full-time Christian ministry, I stopped my college education after 2 years to serve my youth group. 3 years after attending CFNI, God realised my dream to finish a bachelor's degree, and by His hand provided through others all the funds for it. I have never lacked food, clothing, or shelter. I have seen more miracles of God's providence in my life through financial means than I have ever experienced before.
• to get married early. I had literally given up the prospect of getting married before the age of 30 because of many reasons, mainly career and financial ones. My marriage to Lynn would not have been possible if not for God's clear direction and providence for the entire wedding ceremony. It would have been sheer stupidity if we had ignored God's hand over our lives for marriage.
  
• to serve in a growing, healthy church in a full-time capacity while here in US as Lynn pursues her education. Just last week, I remember telling God "Whatever. I give up. I don't really care where You put me, which door You open, I just want to be in Your will." In the last week, I received my authorization to work and an offer for a position in this church.
  

So YES, I am reminded that God wants all of me. Even my very desire to serve Him, would I be willing to give it up if He asked me to?

Yes. YES. YES.

Take my life and let it be consecrated, Lord, to Thee
Take my hands and let them move at the impulse of Thy love
At the impulse of Thy love

Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee
Take my voice and let me sing always only for my King
Always only for my King

Take my silver and my gold, not a mite would I withhold
Take my moments and my days, let them flow in ceaseless praise
Let them flow in ceaseless praise

Take my will and make it Thine, it shall be no longer mine
Take my heart, it is Thine own, it shall be Thy royal throne
It shall be Thy royal throne
~ Frances Havergal, 1874

Are you going to Heaven?

For every American who believes he's going to Hell, there are 120 who believe they're going to heaven. This optimism in stark contrast to Christ's words in Matthew 7:13-14: "Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only few find it."

What would keep us out of Heaven is universal: "All have sinned and fall short of the glory of God" (Romans 3:23). Sin separates us from a relationship with God (Isaiah 59:2). God is so holy that he cannot allow sin into his presence: "Your eyes are too pure to look on evil; you cannot tolerate wrong" (Habakkuk 1:13). Because we are sinners, we are not entitled to enter God's presence. We cannot enter Heaven as we are.

So Heaven is not our default destination. No one goes there automatically. Unless our sin problem is resolved, the only place we will go is our true default destination . . . Hell.

I am addressing this issue now because throughout this book I will talk about being with Jesus in Heaven, being reunited with family and friends, and enjoying the great adventures in Heaven. The great danger is that readers will assume they are headed for Heaven. Judging by what's said at most funerals, you'd think nearly everyone's going to Heaven, wouldn't you? But Jesus made it clear that most people are not going to Heaven: "Small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it."

We dare not "wait and see" when it comes to what's on the other side of death. We shouldn't just cross our fingers and hope that our names are written in the Book of Life (Revelation 21:27). We can know, we should know, before we die. And because we may die at any time, we need to know now---not next month or next year. "Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow . What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes" (James 4:14).

It's of paramount importance to make sure you are going to Heaven, not Hell. The voice that whispers, "There's no hurry; put this book down; you can always think about it later," is not God's voice. He says, "Now is the day of salvation" (2 Corinthians 6:2) and "Choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve" (Joshua 24:15).

- excerpt from Heaven by Randy Alcorn

Think of Me

Following up on my previous post...it's a challenge for me to think outside of myself sometimes. To be honest, after 5 years in America, I have selfishly thought more about myself than when before I came.

America has showed me how selfish I am. In recent years, I have thought of myself as:

- more distinguished than others (so worship me)
- more experienced than others (so respect me)
- smarter, wiser, and more intelligent (so listen to me)
- more needful than others (so give to me)
- more humble than others (so follow my example)
- more important than others (so prefer me)

And then sometimes, and sad to say, less often than it should be, I am reminded that I'm...

- not any more distinguished than a convict
- not any more experienced than an infant
- not any smarter, wiser, or more intelligent than a fool or a failure
- not any more needful than those who seem to have everything
- not any more humble than Mother Theresa
- not any more important than the homeless

Sometimes, I look at myself and see the sorry state I am in. I am more consumed with acquiring worldly things than being consumed with Christ! I have forgotten what it means to have compassion for others, and have placed myself above all things!

I am sorry. I apologize. I have not been a good example of one who follows hard after God. I have forgotten what true religion means: to look after orphans and widows. To extend help to the poor. To reach out in love to those who do not know Him. I must remember to think of others above myself: this is what I am called to do.

Think outside of yourself!

I just gotta put this excerpt from John Maxwell's book "Winning With People". And of course, I highly recommend this book to anyone who wants to improve their people skills. I'm into the sixth chapter and the lessons here are absolutely insightful. Read it. It's really good.

What does it take to change people's perspective and help them see the big picture for the first time in their lives? Sometimes it's getting married. Other times it's getting divorced. Or having a child. The bottom line is that people need to understand that everything is not about them.

READING BETWEEN THE LINES

I recently read an article about actress Angelina Jolie. The catalyst for her change in perspective was a script. Jolie, who won an Oscar in 1999 for her role in Girl, Interrupted, could have been the poster girl for a life adrift. The child of actors Jon Voight and Marcheline Bertrand, she had grown up in Hollywood and indulged in many of it's excesses. She was called a "wild child". And she was well known for drug usage, outrageous behaviour, and sometimes self-destructive actions. She was convinced she would die young.

"There was a time where I never had a sense of purpose, never felt useful as a person," says Jolie. "I think a lot of people have that feeling---wanting to kill yourself or take drugs or numb yourself out because you can't shut it off or you just feel bad and you don't know what it's from."

Success in movies did little to help her. "I felt so off balance all the time," admits Jolie. "I remember one of the most upsetting times in my life was after I had attained success, financial stability and I was in love, and I thought, 'I have everything that they say you should have to be happy and I'm not happy.'"

But then she read the script for Beyond Borders, the story of a woman living a life of privilege who discovers the plight of refugees and orphans around the world. Jolie recalls, "Something in me really wanted to understand what the film was all about, these people in the world, all these displaced people and war and famine and refugees." For a year she traveled around the world with UN workers. "I got my greatest life education and changed drastically," she observes. She visited camps in Sierra Leone, Tanzania, Cote d'Ivoire, Cambodia, Pakistan, Namibia, and Thailand. Her entire perspective changed. She realized that the entire world was made up of other people, many of whom were in dire circumstances, many of whom she could help.

When the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees asked her to become a goodwill ambassador in 2001, she was happy to do it. She also began donating money to help refugees and orphans, including $3 million to the UN's refugee program. (She says she makes a "stupid amount of money" to act in movies.) And she adopted a Cambodian orphan, Maddox. Recently Worth magazine listed her as one of the twenty-five most influential philanthropists in the world. She estimates that she gives almost a third of her income to charity.

Jolie puts it all into perspective: "You could die tomorrow and you've done a few movies, won some awards---that doesn't mean anything. But if you've built schools or raised a child or done something to make things better for other people, then it just feels better. Life is better." Why does she feel that way? Because she finally gets the big picture. She stopped focusing on herself and began putting other people ahead of herself.
~ John Maxwell, Winning With People (emphasis mine)

Disciple

One of the girls in my youth group wrote this essay. It is such a refreshing thing to me when I see young people write with such an understanding and insight of what being a true Christ-follower truly is. Her parents are awesome folks, and she's blessed to have them. And I know they are very proud of their children. I know because they told me.

"What It Means to be a Disciple of Christ"
by Meagan Robson

Many things make up my life. Sports, friends, family, relationships, talents, school, you get the picture. But the one thing that sets these things apart from the many of the other 7th grade girls in this world is that God is involved in each one of these.

Take school for an example. While many other people think of school as a time to sleep, hang out with friends, or just chill, I think of it as a time to worship God. I mean, come on. He gave us each gifts to use to prepare for the future, so that we can fulfill his purpose. If you wanted to be a missionary, for example. You would have to be able to read and write, so that you can study the Bible and lead people to Christ. Or if you wanted to be a teacher, or help people that are illiterate. You can't teach people something if you need to be taught it as well. Things like that kind of make you look at school in a different way.

Another thing is friends. God puts certain people in your life for a reason. Maybe you have a friend that is not saved. You have a good chance of pushing them in the rigth direction, or even leading them to the Lord. It's a little bit harder to do that if you barely know hat person, or not know them at all. If you start out small, such as with your best friends, then acquaintances, and eventually you will find yourself evangelizing to people you've never met in your life. Just remember that one life could change many.

And talents. They can be so important in your life. Say you have a big mission team in Mexico. One person may have the smoothest words and strongest voice that impact and reach thousands, while another could excel in listening and understanding which could reach many hearts. Or if you love to write. Think of if you wrote a book or magazine, which is then published and read by thousands. Think of how many people you could affect because of the gift God gave you. Or if you have talents in music, such as singing. You could make records that who knows how many people will listen to. Small things like that could change the world.

There are more than 6.6. billion people in the world. Imagine what it would be like if even half of us used the gifts and opportunities God puts in our lives. Just imagine.

Thanks, Meagan.

Paul Potts

My hair stood, my tears fell, and my heart leaped at this man's story and voice.

I wonder what kind of history he went through in his past.

but this is a lesson for all of us, for me at least, that we should pursue our God-given dreams with the talents He has given us. Giving up is not an option. We must be bold and courageous to take that step of faith, and who knows where that road might lead us?

You past does not matter. All of us have been given talents. In the end, we are accountable not to others, but to God, for what we have done with them.

Go Paul Potts. You inspire me.

Finger troubles

News Flash:

I sliced off part of my finger on Monday 10/22 with a box-cutter/exacto. The blade ran off the ruler and onto my finger and took a whole chunk off. That night I had NO sleep because of the pain. On Tuesday it hadn't stop bleeding, so the doctor had the wound carterized (cooked with a pointed flame, like a welding tool). It's OK now, no pain, just numbness around the tip of the finger. (Click here to see a pic)

Isn't this amazing how the finger is such a small part of your body that when it is injured or dysfunctional, the entire body hurts!

So it is the same way in the body of Christ. We all have a place to be, a role to play and a reason for existence. All these senseless bickering in the body is pointless.

Stepping Stones

In my previous post, I mentioned that in the world, particularly in the business world, people tend to step on each other to rise to the top. In fact, I still remember the idea that someone I have respected all my life posed to me, "If you dont step on them, they will step on you. Why let them step on you when you're better than them?"

I ended with a very big question: "Where's the love?"

See, we all say we have love. We live in a world where everybody and anybody can say "I love you" and yet don't really mean what they say. We say it to our dogs, cats, our TVs, magazines, the internet, to sex, celebrities, our cars, motorbikes, our food, (the list goes on)... And then we say it to our spouses, our children, our families and loved ones. Have we really lost the essence of what those three words really mean?

With what the world thinks about stepping on others, here's a counter-idea presented to us by a very well known scholar and philosopher:

"Let love be without hypocrisy...be devoted to one another in love; giving preference to one another in honor."

"Do nothing out of selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind, regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interest, but also for the interest of others."

Instead of stepping on others to rise to the top, the greater glory is revealed when we allow ourselves to be the stepping stones so others can rise to the top. This is who we are called to be as Christians.

2 Timothy 4:5

But YOU,
be watchful, alert, and sober in all things,
endure hardship and afflictions,
preach the Good News,
fulfill your ministry.

Is life really worth living?

Yes, if you live it well.

Problem is, not everyone knows how to live it well. The fast-growing electronics company LG says it right: "Life's Good". But it's not just when you buy their consumer electronics, though. Life's good because you make it good, and you know it's good. Christ made this life worth living. You now have the power to feel good about your life because you're not in control...He is.

Recently, I had a very legitimate reason to say that life wasn't treating me really well. Took two CLEP tests hoping to pass them so I could skip ahead in school and not have to pay through my nose to take those subjects in class. But I didnt obtain the required score to get an exemption from classes...and for a couple of weeks, I really didnt feel too good about myself. I mean, the last time I failed a class subject was when I was 16 in high school! So really, I felt terrible. Does my brain still work? Could I still absorb what I've learned? Am I capable anymore? Lies, Lies, LIES. I let lies sit on the couch on my mind and watch TV through my eyes. Everything was boring and dull as a result of that crummy attitude.

Well, not anymore coz I reminded myself that there is a better way to look at things. There is always a better way. So I went to my first class this semester today and thought to myself, there must be a reason why I'm sitting here taking doing this course when I could have passed it cheap. And I look forward to discovering that reason.

This post is rather sketchy, or raw, if you will, but only because I just wanna write something in here. The song by Switchfoot "Dare You To Move" has been ringing in my head the entire morning. Highly motivational. I recommend it. Go live your life like it mattered for only today. What will you leave behind?

Touchdown...

We actually made it! Finally after more than 24hours of flying and transits, we are back in PENANG! Flying like this really takes a toll on the body coz here I am awake since 5am this morning. The AC's too cold in the room, the air is too warm outside the room, mosquitoes and mosquitoes and mosquitoes. Ahhh...this is the life! Y'know, I'm actually so grateful that my parents fixed AC in the room. We lived without that luxury all my life. Definitely one of the best inventions of mankind.

OKOK please excuse me, I digress. So here are some pics from our journey, have fun, and I will try my best to update regularly while I can.

Stopover in LAX

at the new Hong Kong International Airport

Downtown HK

Double decker bus. Downtown HK reminds me of San Francisco.


View from Tsim Sha Tsui: ferry and International Finance Centre (IFC) Building

Some thoughts from way back....

...from my 2002 mini-journal-notebook thingy

Work:
- what income level do I want to attain?
- what level of responsibility do I seek?
- how much authority do I want to command?
- what prestige do I expect to gain from my work?

Home:
- what kind of living standards do I want to provide for my family and myself?
- what kind of house and home do I wanna live in?
- what kind of vacations do I wanna take?
- what financial support do I wanna give my children in their early adult years?

Social:
- what kinda friends do I wanna have?
- what social groups do I wanna join?
- what community leadership positions would I like to hold?
- what worthwhile causes do I wanna champion?


I looked but I did not write down any answers for those questions above. Now that I've experienced life a bit more and seen so much more than I could ever ask for, I look at those questions and feel like I have answers, yet I am challenged for greater things.

Make no mistake: I have been satisfied so far, but I am pressing on for more. Because I know there's more out there that God has prepared for me.

Watch out, world. HERE I COME!

The time has come...

Wow. It's been a while, hasn't it? Time sure does fly by!

Anyways, many things have been going on the last 2 months, and God has been really real our lives, for both Pheng and I. For those of you still in the dark, we are getting married in June in Malaysia. Yesss, the date is finally set, and we will be walking down that aisle very soon!

It's a long story of how God made this all possible, but basically just the fact that He knew the desires of our hearts, He provided the means necessary for the wedding and the dinner, and He gave us the opportune time for this to happen. And in all these, He showed us again and again through a series of confirmation and reminding us that He is working all things out for us. Our plans to get married was not until early 2008 (maybe even later) but God's plan is always best. How could we refuse this?! It would be foolishness and plain stupidity! And so, it is to God's plan that we submit out lives and this decision to get married!

People, all who are reading this: I want you all to know that God is real and He is interested in our lives. When I say "our" I mean YOU and EVERYBODY plus ME! His plans do not confuse us, or bring destruction or aimlessness, but the Bible says that from the beginning of time, even before you or I were even conceived in our mother's wombs, He has thought of us and destined great things for our future to prosper and not to harm us. The only thing we need to do is to trust and believe Him.

Friends, do you believe? I mean, truly believe?

water issues

One of my favouritest verses in the Bible is Philippians 4:8

Finally, my brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are honest, whatever things are right, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report; if there is any virtue and if there is any praise, think on these things.

Every once in a while, actually, more often than not, I realise that the reason I get so troubled about things is because I dwell so much on the negative side. It's probably only human to mull over negative things and allow them to overwhelm me, but being human is not good enough an excuse for bad attitudes and negative thinking. As Christians, followers of Christ, believers in the One and true God, we are charged to think positively. Just like that famous analogy of the half cup of water. Do we look at it as half empty, or half full? If half empty, then we will never be satisfied because nothing will be enough. If half full, then we will always be thankful to God for whatever we get, even if it is just a half cup of water. This is one of the ways we live out our higher calling; this is how we become a testimony to those who do not yet know Christ or understand His teachings--when we live a life that says "We face difficult circumstances, but we are not overwhelmed because everything and anything is, can be and will be solved."

But the problem with us is, like I said, we dont dwell enough on the good things but we see the negative side of things and allow our attitude and our thinking to be distorted. Everything then becomes about ME, how I deserve better than this, how this is not working out for ME, how life is so unfair to me, how dare other people treat ME this way, I'm not getting what I want, etc., etc., etc.

The world becomes a sad and sorry place when this happens. We lose respect for others when this happens. Although we can rationalise that we should expect the worse, honestly, even that rational thinking is warped because everything is centered on the self. So while the world and the people in the world turn into a nasty bunch, we forget that we are turning ourselves into one of them. Selfish, Nasty, Unreasonable, Unforgiving.

Oh God, help me not to be anything like that. I want to learn to love like you do, Jesus. Help me to live with and show Your compassion, Your love. Help me to live with honour and respect for others. Help me to prefer others above myself, and to love them with all my heart. Help me, Oh God, to be just like you. Make me a testimony to the world of Your love and grace. Make me reflect you, Jesus.

I give you a new commandment, that you love one another. As I have loved you, you should also love one another. By this all shall know that you are My disciples, if you have love toward one another. (John 13:34-35)

The solution? Dwell on the good things! Even in the midst of trouble, there is good in it! Look at the silver lining in every cloud and remember that the light and clear skies will follow. What good is it when we mull over things and let our attitudes reflect our troubles, when we can let our troubles reflect the greatness and sovereignty our God? He is able, and we must believe it, and LIVE it!

How do YOU look at YOUR half cup of water?

Finally, my brothers, whatever things are TRUE, whatever things are HONEST, whatever things are RIGHT, whatever things are PURE, whatever things are LOVELY, whatever things are OF GOOD REPORT; if there is any VIRTUE and if there is any PRAISE, think on these things.

"A Long Way Home"

Here's the song "A Long Way Home" by Bebo Norman

It's a long way home, and the fists have flown
In the silence, there's nowhere left to run
It's the battle of our pending love
In the shadow of another smoking gun

When we dreamed this dream for the first it seemed
We could live this love for a lifetime...you and me

I will not give up this fight
I will not lay down and die
I will not carry this heart of stone
I may not be your place to run
I may not be your kingdom come
I may stumble through this great unknown
But I will be all that is true
I will not give up on you
I was made to be with you alone

Cause you and me, we're gonna see...the long way home

It's a long way home, and crying is done
But the sorrow is still wet upon your face
Our colliding hearts sometimes break apart
But now the pieces are gathered up in grace

When we dream this dream for the last time we'll see
That we lived this love for a lifetime...just you and me

Cause you and I, we're gonna fly...the long way home

The words in this song...just so riveting, so apt at this point in my life. My heart is comforted. Thank you Bebo, thank you so much.

Spring Break....

Okok...real quick...I was over being angry many moons ago, so chills, baby! So anyways I just wanted to say that I had a restful spring break. Even though I still had to work, but I had some good rest times, just not worrying about classes, spending time with friends, etc.

Also I'm starting to exercise a little more frequently now, was planning to take part in a triathlon in May, but now am rethinking that decision because of a more important priority...will post when plans are more solidified, OK. But meanwhile, I am still hoping to maintain a regular workout schedule. You know, getting fit is a good thing for anyone.

So yeah anyways, thank you all those who keep praying for me and Lynn. We are blessed, and we are praying through many things right now...and things have been and are looking to be even more exciting for the both of us.

God is good, and His mercy endures forever! Praise be to the King of Kings!

I am right now EXTREMELY MAD at and UPSET with myself. I had promised a couple of good friends, Eric and Dustin, that i was gonna go see them take part in a triathlon about 70 miles away in another city, Athens, and I OVERSLEPT. Yes i missed my multiple alarm clocks that i had set up and OVERSLEPT (gasp, facedown, slap-to-forehead, cry uncontrollably). I was supposed to leave at 8am to travel there and arrive at 9.30am in time hopefully to catch them cycling or running. But this TWERP here had to wake up at 9.30 itself, which even if i had gone would have taken me 1.5 hours drive and arrive at 11pm. The triathlon would already be over by then. And worse still is that I had indicated to Eric that i would be able to give him a ride from Athens back to Dallas...and now...GARRRHHHHH!!!

Nobody talk to me, for your own safety.

*boil*