owning up

Since when this statement "not someone who owns up to his shortcomings easily" (catchline in editorial on Dr M by Steven Gan in Malaysiakini, May 23, 2006) became the standard for strength in a person? The real strength is in humility. Even I catch myself standing up for what I thought was right, when deep down I know I am wrong. That doesn’t say I'm strong. In fact, that reveals that I'm weak! How often do we see leaders (political or not) own up to their shortcomings?

But then here's the situation…this world is full of people who think that honesty and humility are signs of weakness, and so even for those who exercise strength in character by being honest and humble, they face the higher risk of being labeled as cowards simply because nobody believes in these virtues. And then there are the boneless people who simply agree to what others say. They don’t think, don’t reason or rationalize for themselves, or just plain lazy, which leads to their further lack of common sense. To their detriment, and to the detriment of society, I must say!

I believe in strong leadership. I believe that leaders have to be developed. Anyone can be a leader, yes. But to be a good leader, one must be willing to listen and not afraid to lead.

How ah?

question: What is it that i'm good at that i wouldnt mind making a living out of?

This is one of the things i keep in the back of my head constantly. and the problem is, i have too many answers. there's too many things that i think i'm good at that i would love to do, but i dont think i cant do just one forever. I wanna have a variety of things to do. i think that will keep me alive. for now.

soemtimes i wish someone would invent something that can capture our dreams just as they appear in our minds. every trace, every rabbit trail, every nervous impulse, every charge in the sinews...everything recorded just as it is, like a video recording. it'll be so cool to have something that i can attach to my brain, and go to sleep, and when i wake up, i can hit a couple of buttons and replay every dream. Or imagine a gadget i can clip to the back of my ear, and all throughout the day will capture every idea, every thought process, every intent of the heart, and at the end of the day just hit play and i can find it. imagine, no more stressing out the brain to find the right words to express your thoughts, man, just show it to others and they understand immediately what you're trying to say.

i was talking with SamThecka the other night, and we talked about how when we stand before God in judgment, every thought and every motive will be surfaced, nothing will be hidden. everything will be taken into account. man, God's technology is incredible! as i write this, my thoughts, my actions, my motives are not secret, not hidden from his sight. God's recording mechanism will never fail, satisfaction over-exceeded, guaranteed.

i just wish that i could have that kind of ability right now. words are so fragile, so unreliable at times. so are dreams, when you have nothing but words to remember them by.

after 3+ years in the United States, i finally watched my first world class football match on TV this morning. alright..alright...i'm guilty...first thing on my mind this morning was football. since when did i become a football freak? hmmm...probably during the last World Cup in Korea-Japan.

anyways, it was an exciting match between favourites Sweden and underdogs Trinidad & Tobago. it was TnT's first World cup appearance, and first ever match, but they managed a draw with the experienced Swedish team! and that with a 10-man team in the second half! incredible match, i tell ya! i havent felt that kinda excitement over football in a long time!

woohoo. now i wish i had more opportunity to watch the other matches. needless to say, it was just pleasure, sweet sweeet pleasure to do nothing but sit down and watch a game for a full 90 minutes. i miss it.

i wonder, in the new heaven and earth, will there be football?

ooops. just realised...by "football" i meant SOCCER - the REAL football.

time and place: lunchtime, office
current feelings/emotions: tired, hungry, frustrated
action: eating rice with belacan mix vege stir fry from yesterday

today's one-liner:
"How many people get to do what they enjoy and get paid for it?" - my Sociology professor on her job.